Upgrade OS BB! akakaka….

Halo semua… pa kabar??? punya blackberry dan ingin meng-upgrade OS nya? Tentu saja kan. ^^
Begini, g punya pengalaman menarik ketika ingin mencoba mengupgrade sendiri. Dan g panik begitu terjadi white screen pada blackberry ku. T-T
lalu g minta bantuan melalui forum id_blackberry yang ada di yahoo groups. dan berikut adalah feedback dari orang yang berbaik hati. ^^

Jawabanna….

Maksudnya ga ilang gimana ya biss? Di PC atau di hh? Kalau di PC, afaik memang harus uninstall versi sebelumnya dulu..

Caranya ane copas yah..

Basic:

1. Download OS terbaru buat device kamu (Pastikan OS itu untuk tipe Blackberry kamu)
2. Backup data kamu pake Desktop Manager.
3. Install OS yang tadi kamu download di No.1 (.exe file)
4. Hapus file “vendor.xml” (C:\Program Files\Common Files\Research In Motion\AppLoader)
5. Install OS yang baru tadi dengan cara sambungin BB kamu ke PC pake Desktop Manager.

Advance:

1. 1. Download OS terbaru buat device kamu dari gudang commberry atau darimana aja.(Pastikan OS itu untuk tipe Blackberry kamu)
2. Backup data kamu pake Desktop Manager
3. Backup aplikasi-aplikasi yang kamu sudah install sebelumnya
4. Kalau kamu dulu pernah mengupdate firmware sebelumnya, uninstall dulu dari komputer kamu (Control Panel > Add/Remove Program Uninstall OS yg lama dari list)
5. Install OS yang tadi kamu download di No.1 (.exe file)
6. Hapus file “vendor.xml” (C:\Program Files\Common Files\Research In Motion\AppLoader)
7. Wipe Blackberry kamu menggunakan JL_cmdr
8. Install OS yang baru tadi dengan cara sambungin BB kamu ke PC pake
9. Desktop Manager > App Loader.
10. Restore applikasi pihak ketiga kamu 10. Restore dari Backup data yang tadi dibuat di No.2

Wiping your Blackberry using JL_cmdr:

1. Sambungkan BB dengan PC menggunakan USB
2. Setelah BB terhubung, pilih opsi no.4 – Wipe Handheld ketik “blackberry” (tanpa tanda petik) untuk menghapus seluruh system
3. blackberry. Setelah ini, Blackberry akan reboot, akan ada tampilan layar putih dengan tulisan ‘507′ error. Jangan panic, memang demikian, karena OSnya ga ada.
4. silahkan melanjutkan menginstall OS yang baru.

Note: Ada beberapa forum yang menambahkan proses Memory Optimization, namun menurut saya gak perlu karena OS kamu sudah di delete habis pada proses Wipe Blackberry. Proses itu boleh saja dilakukan kalau kamu memang mau. Selama melakukan proses ini, gunakan sambungan USB langsung ke USB PORT. JANGAN sambung menggunakan USB HUB.

Ada kalanya Blackberry tidak ter-detect oleh PC/Desktop Manager/JL_cmdr, jangan panik, coba lepas dan sambung kembali kabel USB, terkadang bisa sampai 5 kali copot-sambung baru terdeteksi. Bila terjadi hal-hal aneh (semoga enggak), jangan panik dan stress, coba jelaskan permasalahannya kesini, nanti kita bantu semaksimal
mungkin. Advance step ini ditujukan agar OS yang diinstall lebih ‘fresh’ tanpa meninggalkan file-file system lama yang mungkin ditinggalkan OS lama pada saat proses upgrade/downgrade.

p.s. thx buat infonya ya…. akakka… n selamat mencoba bagi pembaca blog. ^^

Problemo Sis!

When we live in this world, no one can escape from problems. the question is, are we brave enough to face the problem? Of course we have a lot of choices. The easiest is Walking away.

Have you ever listen to a “Walking Away” song by Craig David:

Walking Away

CHORUS

I’m walking away, from the troubles in my life

I’m walking away, oh to find a better day

(chorus X2)

I’m walking away

Sometimes some people get me wrong,

when it’s something I’ve said or done

Sometimes you feel there is no fun,

that’s why you turn and run

But now I truly realize,

some people don’t want to compromise

Well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies and

Well I don’t want to live my life,

too many sleepless nights

Not mentioning the fights,

I’m sorry to say lady

CHORUS

Well I’m so tired baby

Things you say,

you’re driving me away

Whispers in the powder room baby,

don’t listen to the games they play

Girl I thought you’d realize,

I’m not like them other guys

Cuz I saw them with my own eyes,

you should have been more wise, and

I don’t wanna live my life,

too many sleepless nights

Not mentioning the fights,

I’m sorry to say lady

CHORUS(Repeat to end)

Based on the lyrics, we can see which walking away seems to be the best option. But, I tell you this:

You will faced harder problems than that time when you choose to walking away

Be brave even though it never be easy. Apologize to the one you hurt. There is no other way. In the end, we have to choose whether we want to do the right thing or not. sometimes it feels like the world will be better place if they disappear or us the one who disappear – depends of what problems we face. When we hurt people, we will regret it and want to disappear. when the other hurt you, you want them the one who is disappear. We are in this world for a reason. this is part of our play. It is funny right when we heard that life is a drama. well, whether you like it or not, but it is true. for someone that can realize how fake our life is, it will be obviously. For me, my life is a drama, a story which i am the main actress. My priority is make a beautiful story with madness and happiness in every scene of my life. i do not want to regret anything. Maybe most of my scene i hurt at least a person, but i will not just give up, i want to be a better person. Once i fall, i will stand up and face my problem, try to be better in the future. O yeah, I like crying, although i am not am not cry so often when i grow up, but when i was a child, i used to cry. I point that to be my reason why i can not feel anything about my past.

Sometimes I feel, I am a Human Robot, coz i see life like in the script of drama. just a plot of drama. when i am in that state, there is nothing can hurt me and my laugh either is just kind of spontaneous response. Yeah, like a zombie i guessed. maybe some of you will think, that is my way to protect my weaker side. yeah, i think so.

The truth is I am really are give up to my condition, I won’t push myself again, I just wanna be maximal, do my best. Let it be. ^^

I hope my plan will be realized, yet i know God also has plan on me, n of course i believe the best plan ever. ^^ In You I put my life, my heart, my body, and my soul, My Lord.

Sulam yuks…. akakaka….

Guys… ada kalanya dalam suatu hubungan timbal balik antar sesama manusia, terjadi konflik. Konflik adalah suatu keadaan dimana antara satu sama lainnya terjadi hubungan yang tidak baik karena alasan tertentu. Jika ingin dikatakan, aku termasuk manusia dengan konflik terbanyak di antara sahabat-sahabatku. Hahaha…

Aku selalu diocehin gara-gara kebodohanku. hahaha… emang pada dasarnya g ga gt smart sebagai seorang manusia. ^^ so, aku uda pasrah. Aku cuma bisa belajar dari semua kesalahanku. kalo emang aku pernah salah, aku akan berusaha belajar untuk tidak melakukan kesalahan yang sama. Ada saatnya aku benar-benar terpuruk, Tapi, Puji Syukur, aku percaya bahwa semua ini ada hikmahnya. Hal yang selalu membuatku kuat adalah bahwa aku yakin, seyakin-yakinnya, bahwa Tuhan memiliki rencana yang terbaik atas diriku, walaupun rencana-Nya tidak sejalan dengan rencana kita. Seperti cerita anak dan ibunya yang sedang merajut.

Ada seorang anak yang sedang bermain di dekat ibunya, sedangkan ibunya sedang menyulam. Dari bawah anak tersebut melihat sulaman ibunya berupa benang-benang yang semerawut tanpa ada bentuk dan pastinya tidak indah. Anak tersebut mengeluh kepada ibunya bahwa ibunya melakukan sesuatu yang tidak bisa dimengerti olehnya karena menurutnya jalinan benang-benang itu terlihat sangat berantakan. Ibu hanya tersenyum dan mengatakan bahwa Anak itu harus bersabar untuk melihat hasil akhirnya. Akhirnya anak itu pun bermain kembali. Beberapa lama kemudian, Ibunya memanggil anak itu dan mendudukkannya di pangkuan. Ibu memperlihatkan hasil sulaman yang indah itu. Anak itu pun terkagum-kagum.

Seperti itulah rencana Tuhan atas kita. Ketika kita menjalaninya memang terlihat seakan-akan segalanya sangat berantakan. ada masanya dimana kita benar-benar terpuruk. saat dimana kita berharap diri kita menghilang – melarikan diri sambil berharap masalah itu akan selesai seiring dengan waktu. Tapi, itulah yang membedakan seorang pengecut dan seorang bertanggung jawab. Orang yang takut dan kalah dr masalah di hadapannya hanya akan membuatnya semakin banyak masalah dan hidupnya penuh dengan ketakutan. Nah tipe orang yang seperti ini mgkn tidak banyak yang memperhatikan, tapi orang yang berani bertahan menanggung semua perlakuan akan kesalahan yang pernah dia lakukan itu patut diacungin jempol. kenapa? mereka adalah orang yang menyadari kesalahan dan mau bertanggung jawab atasnya. mereka mungkin tidak bisa memperbaiki apa yang telah terjadi tetapi dengan bertahan pada situasi terburuk padahal mereka bisa pergi menunjukkan betapa hebatnya orang itu.

Orang hebat adalah orang yang melakukan kesalahan, menyadari, mengakui, dan menjadikan kesalahan itu sebagai pengalaman untuk menjadi manusia yang lebih baik lagi. seburuk-buruknya hal yang kita lakukan, jika kita memiliki niat untuk berbuat yang lebih baik lagi serta mengakui dan menyadarinya, kita tidak perlu takut akan omongan, gosip, isu, atau lain sebagainya. Bukan berarti kita tidak perlu mendengarkan omongan orang lain, kita harus menerimanya sebagai masukan tetapi kita juga harus menyaringnya. jika setelah dipikir2 dan dibandingkan dengan fakta yang terjadi, apa yang mereka katakan tidak benar, maka kita tidak perlu menjadikannya sebagai beban pikiran. Jika memang benar, maka kita harus melakukan sesuatu untuk bisa menjadi lebih baik lagi.

Jangan merasa kesalahan itu akhir dari dunia. seberat-beratnya masalah yang kita hadapi, kita pasti bisa selesaikan dengan usaha dan doa. Tuhan tidak akan memberikan kita cobaan yang lebih berat dari yang bisa kita tanggung.

Berani untuk melangkah!
Ini ada beberapa recommend buat yang lagi terpuruk:
1. Jangan Menyerah – D’massive
2. Indah pada waktunya – Edward Chen
3. Dia mengerti – Superkids Singer
4. Gotta Go on My Own Way – High School Musical 2
5. Bad Day – Daniel Powter
6. Beautiful – Christina Aguilera
7. Keep Holdin On – Avril Lavigne
8. I’m with You – Avril Lavigne
9. Let It Be – The Beatles
10. Listen – Beyonce
11. Mukjizat itu Nyata
12. I Will Survive – Cake
13. I’ll Stand by You – Carrie Underwood
14. Tangan Tuhan – Nikita
15. Walking Away – Craig David
16. Journey – Corrine May
17. Have You Ever – S Club 7

New Semester.. 5!!!

Hello… long time no see wkwkwk… Pa kabar ne semuanya?

Belakangan liburan ga terjadi hal2 yang menarik. makanya blm sempat ngepost apa2. Yah.. palingan ada masalah kecil lar. tp ya uda ga usa dibahas. ^^

Everyone got problems in their life, doesn’t it?

Selain tidak ada kejadian menarik, lagi males nulis juga. ga ada ide, n jari2nya uda kaku gara2 jarang megangin laptop. Yah… apa mau dikata. namanya juga liburan. n sebentar lagi liburan g uda mau berakhir. Ada perasaan senang ada juga perasaan takut menghadapi kuliah kali ini. kenapa? soalnya semester ini uda dilakukan penjurusan sesuai dengan minat. Nah di Tekom ada 2 peminatan unggulan sejauh ini, yaitu Robotik dan Jaringan. g si milihnya robotik. uda dari awal menetapkan hati, tp ambil CCNA 2 juga, pelajaran jaringan. kek semi double major gt denk.

Jadwal tekom uda kuar beberapa hari lalu di forum, trus pas kulihat n kubikin schedule na di excel, betapa kagetnya diriku (sok baku ^^), padet gila! cuma hari kamis yang sorenya ga ada apa2. ckckck… habis itu kucoba untuk melihat jadwal jaringan , alhasil g terpukul banget. bagaimana tidak, jadwal mereka kosong melompong! huhuhuhu…. Yah… nasib-nasib. hahaha…

Masalahnya ga ampe di situ. uda itu, g ama Stu baru menyadari kalo kami melakukan kesalahan. kesalahan kami yaitu kami mengambil pelajaran yang ga perlu diambil dan mengabaikan pelajaran yang wajib diambil. jadi de panik. hahaha…. belum lagi kami merencanakan akan mengikuti KP semester pendek depan sehingga cm bs ngambil sdkt mku. jadi beginilah rumusan masalahku:

jadwal padet + mku yang blm diambil + KP = stresss

Gimana ne??? puyeng, pusing, stress… tp blm depresi ya, jd jangan nawarin g ke psikiater dulu. ^^ Trus akhirnya kami menemukan satu jalan keluar, yaitu menambah 1 pelajaran lagi untuk semester ini. Masih ingat kan betapa stress na g ketika melihat jadwal g semester ini? nah, g masih mau nambah 1 pelajaran lagi. g ga tau dah itu dinamakan hebat, berani atau bodoh n nyari mati. tapi itu sudah mencapai tahap “mau ga mau”. u know? kalo uda nyampe tahap itu, uda ga ada kata “tidak”. jadilah masalahku:

jadwal super padat + mku yg blm diambil + KP = stresss^2

Doain z dah kalo g bisa.

Mungkin kali ini MKU yang kuambil bakalan gabung ama kelas lain n mungkin g satu2nya dari tekom. jadwalku dan Stu bentrok soalnya, jadi kemungkinan besar kami akan mengambil MKU yang berbeda. So, kita liat z ntar gimana jadinya. ahahha…

keep fighting!

Resolusi untuk semester ini:

Belajar lebih giat lagi
Realisasi:
Ingin mencatat selengkap2nya, makanya beli buku yg mahalan jg gpp asal membangkitkan semangat mencatat

Lebih Kritis
Realisasi:
ini belum ada yang direalisasikan

Lebih Easy Going:
Realisasi:
Belum jg, kan blm mulai kul

Lebih tegas:
Realisasi:
belum, tp salah satu bentuknya adalah tidak memberikan jawaban secara gamblang, yah… mungkin sekedar menuntun. pemberian jawaban hanya dilakukan jika waktu sudah sangat amat mendesak, dan dengan syarat setelah pemberian tsb, org yang diberikan hrs belajar tentang soal itu detik itu juga.

Lebih rapi n teratur:
Realisasi:
Barang yang tidak lagi dipergunakan, disimpan ke tempat semula dengan rapi, tidak ada kata menunda!

Surat Perjanjian Malas terealisasikan
Realisasi:
ga ada pembatalan lagi! kalo ampe dilakukan pembatalan, g ga akan ngajak2 buat melakukan perjanjian itu lagi, n g akan melakukan sendiri.

Lebih Hemat
Realisasi:
menabung la. uda pst. setiap x mau membeli brg, g hrs menanyakan apakah diriku benar2 memerlukannya. kalo ga, ya uda ga usa. btw, g hrs menghindari GRAMEDIA. duh… berat kek na.

My Best Best Friend !!!

I got 3 best friends from senior high school: Tiara, Fanny, and Sulis. Unlike my other friends, they will always tried to contact me even when they busy. Me too. I will spend at least a minute to send sms, asking how they are doing. they will reply even it will take some time, but they will reply.

The fourth of us has something different to share with. I will explain one by one.

from the oldest to youngest:

Tiara

A girl that a little bit fat, the oldest from 4 children. She take business major in university at Singapore. Tiara likes to surfing on internet, most of our information about artists, we get from her. Tiara’s home is the based of us. We get together there almost every weeks when we still in high school. Her mom would prepare some delicious food. ^^ Well, Tiara has a problem with her body balance, that makes me very aware and worry about her when “jurit malam”. But, she really are surprise me to pass that section of retreat smoothly. Tiara and I like a cat and mouse, we spoke hardly each other. the people who don’t know us will thinking that we are on mouth fight, but it is not true. that is the way we communicate. sometimes it is so funny and we laugh at it. O yeah, she also can use the tarots for predict the answer of our question. maybe not too expert but most of her prediction comes true. She stop that, when she hear that it can shorten her life. We do not want it too so we stopped asking. One thing which she love the most is Money. wkwkkw.. but actually she appreciate the relationship more than materials.

Sulis

This girl is the most girly i think. why? Coz she is they type of girl that does not make a lot of noise and the way she speak is very tender. But, you actually will know her weak point. that is “BULE”. ahaha… every time we talking about “BULE”, she is the most excited. Well, her dreams really are comes true. now she live among the “BULE”. She takes hairdressing major in one of the Australia’s university. Congrats for her. If you ever ask me what is my impression about her is she has more mother side then the rest of us. She will be a good mother. O yeah, she really good in eating fried chicken. It is very clean until the bone! yeah of course she does not eat the bone. but you can see a clean bone of chicken. Based on the myth of Chinese, that the more you eat your food cleanly, you will have the more money, or you will have the more handsome husband. hahaha… so, based on this myth, we always said that Sulis will got the most handsome husband and the richest.

Jeannie

It is me. You can a little bit guess about what kind of person i am from my blog. I think i just have to give a little bit clue. I am a girl that is broken home of course. but I got grandmother and grandfather that loves me very much. I really are grateful. Well, i am type of adaptive girl. Hm… like bunglon. That makes me most popular. Sometimes it makes me have to choose between my best friend and my friend. If you want to know, i had a less RAM on my brain. Coz my brain take a lot of time to loading. Friends said that i am talk-active. I can not stop talking when we are hang out. hahaha… it does not mean that i am trying to controlled the topic but sometimes there are topics i want to share with, and unfortunately, there are a lot of them.

Fanny

The brain and the most clever. She got the gold medals in National Olympiad competition of Computer. That is no doubt about her brain. Now she is the student of ITB, Institute Technology of Bandung. She takes Electrical major. I am very sad when she can not join us in the last retreat, so we can not have fun together. she can drive, really good listener. every time i have problems, i share it to her. Well, the other reason is because it is cheaper. haha… we are in Indonesia. Fanny has a cute face actually, n i will not surprise if there are a lot of man out there waiting for her, Although she must never be realize. kind hearted and really in control. she is the one that never thought about material. all she care about is life. that makes her special.

We are different but we appreciate our friendship more than anything. of course not above God and family. ^^

Jacko, Goodbye….

Michael Jackson Funeral is the most sad show i ever seen. Even i do not know him too much, but the way people appreciate him make me feel like i do not want to lose him too. Most of the people there said that he is an inspirational man. Not only as a superstar, but also as humanitarian. the only daughter of Michael Jackson told them that he is the best father. Jacko, His nickname, is known as kind hearted man. He likes children very much. Because of this he ever being sued for sex harassment on a child. Ok, it is really ridiculous. A man who is played as the main actor in home alone, Kevin, stand for him. He grow up as a friend of Jacko and he never ever feel that Jacko has pedophilia problems.

Jacko has something special as a superstar. He is well-known as The King Of Pop. This achievement based on the number of his albums copy that sold until now. After the issue of her death, people still looking for his albums, unfortunately, it was all sold. He has music video that like a short movie with him as the main actor and a story.

Superstar is never ever being escape from gossip. The biggest gossip is about his changing skin color. Well, he was born as negro but his skin is lighter and lighter each day. It makes the media wonder the reason behind the changing color. their guess : He has some passion about being white, so he had operation on it. The truth is he had a disease that makes her pigment changes. The only operation he did is her nose. Nobody can hide his broken nose from world. It really sad thing coz most of people makes a jokes about his nose.

As Humanitarian, he really cared most on Africa. He wrote a song to collect  some money for the poor. The song is “We are the World”. He sing this song not only with 2 or 3 other singer, but… a lot lot of famous singer in America. This is the prove of his attention to the world.

When he died, it is not only his family and his fans mourn, but also the world. he is one of a kind.

The story of his death is still being investigate by the police. The family said that Jacko is being drugged by people that using him so they can controlled him easily. I really hope this case can be solved.

Goodbye Jacko… we will miss you so much…

Seks??? Taboo or not?

Talking about sex.

Do you know? sex is an activity that always been taboo thing in east. why? because people here still hold tight the social norm. each country had their own culture but most of them had that taboo in their norm.

Sex is something that we will have after married, not before. That is the precious gift, some believe it as a ritual that sign the couple as husband and wife. So, it is sacred, not a game, not kind of entertainment, but pure.

But, nowadays, new generation has their own way to think about what is matter. Talk as they are the most intelligence generation. They do not know the history and do not want to know. They speak and shout, mad to the elder. they said that it is nonsense.

How about myself?

I am part of this new generation. i has principle. Sometimes thinking about sex is natural but take action? i am never suggest it. You can mock me as old thinking person. the reason i hold the norm as tight as the elder is because i do appreciate what they are thinking and what they want to deliver to us. They were maybe as intelligence as us or even more intelligence in the past, they tried to solve problems for themselves and for the next generation. stubborn is true in this case. not them, but us. we want freedom, as free as possible but we failed to look after the root of problem. there is a lot of norm that prevent us do stupidity that ever done in the past. Like, sex with different pair often. Just thinking about AIDS, emptiness, loveless, and sin.

See, sex is dangerous when it is put not it’s place. There are more story about sex that result in bad ways. so, it is depend to us, whether we obey the norm or against it so badly. remember, we are east people not west. never ever lose our identity. Home is the most convenient place.

Well, even we are west people, it is not true to have free-seks with different pair.

Loneliness…

Lonely…
that is the one i tried to denied for years. I tried but sometimes it still caught me. I would cry ever since. and in this situation, just God, the only one whom can cheers me up.

Don’t know whether my parents enjoy their life or not. but for me, life is a joy of happiness and sadness. I tried to fully enjoy every moment even when i was the one in the wrongness. I believe that every moment is our lesson of something whether it is about how our life is going to, our relationship, our knowledge, or our experience. Everything has it means.

Life is never be boring. it has it own way to make it colorful. the one that it can’t do is change our perspective to see that. can we see what the life tried to show us?

I ever in condition when i think i want to runaway, but i ever been through the worst. if i can stand that time, i can stand this time too. Runaway seems like an easy choice but in the end the problems will come to us again and even worst than that time. We have to face it when it came to us. it is the only choice.

With my perspective like this, i still feel lonely. don’t know why. sometimes i feel alone although my auntie and her family really accept me among them. But it just feels doesn’t right. I know that they put a lot of effort on me more than they have to. It maybe feels like i was in a prison that only had one day a month to be free to going out with my friends, but I really grateful, they care about me.

But still, why i feel lonely?

trying to searching the answer for days and finally, i found it. I lose the spirit of life in my soul. Well, sometimes it is happen. And it makes me feel so bad.

My Personality test result… I am Great! ahhaha…

Well, g uda pernah mengikuti tes kepribadian secara langsung dengan psikolog, tapi ga ada salahnya mencoba yang ini. hehehe… berikut adalah hasil dari tes kepribadianku. hm… most of it, benar. tapi ga semuanya. ^^

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don’t judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren’t necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people’s eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren’t interested in wasting time with people you don’t really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

instropeksi

Wew… hari libur yg menyenangkan ampe membosankan. ^^ soalnya 3 bulan bo’ tp in my head, there is no boring day in this holiday. why? karena g bakalan bantu2 di tokonya Tante g.Hitung2 nambah pengalaman dan membiasakan diri bekerja. gile! kalo ga mulai mikirin kerja, kan ga mgkn banget. secara umur uda 19 tahun, tinggal 8 bulan lagi 20 tahun. g uda ga remaja lagi. artinya g harus mikirin gmn caranya survive alone. mandiri istilah indonesianya. hahaha…

G jadinya mengintropeksi diri, selama 1 tahun pertama, 2 tahun g di Jkt, begitu banyak hal dari diriku yang membangkitkan amarah dari keluarga tanteku, baik Koko, dd, Om, n Tante. Tingkahku yang suka dibuat2, aneh2, yang nyebelin, kata-kataku yang tanpa kusadari menyakitkan, dan lain sebagainya. Sekarang walaupun ga sepenuhnya klop, tapi uda bs berjalan secara harmonis. ^^ ini perjuangan keras lho. wkwkkw… kdg g nyakitin mereka, kdg mereka yang nyakitin g. well, ini adalah hal yang biasa di dalam hidup, timbal balik. Tapi satu hal yang membuatku berusaha untuk tidak menyakiti mereka yaitu mereka tetap menerimaku dan berusaha untuk mendidikku. hanya keluarga kitalah yang mau berusaha untuk ini. So, pikiranku pun terbuka. dari yang hanya tau lingkungan keluargaku di Khuntien yg ternyata tanpa kusadari ternyata tidak semuanya baik, sekarang g tau bagaimana rasanya masuk di pandangan yang berbeda.

Di sini, segala sesuatu yang dikerjakan harus berdasarkan logika dan efisiensi, yang paling penting adalah perasaan. I am being forced to be able paying attention of people’s behavior and act without hurt them. yet i have to be hard when it needed.

I have not pass this lesson yet. so, almost everyday they get mad. ^^ but, they will be nice to me again, coz they know i am learning. madness is the way to show that they are care about me. they are worried i am not be able to survive in this cruel word. they can not always beside me, right? is not that what family supposed to be?

hehehe…